Albert Goldbarth
1.
Not even nothing existed yet.
Emptiness, even, didn’t exist.
And He-who-by-definition-precedeth-nothing
said—well, you know what He said,
in that grandiloquent King James way of speaking.
And there was light. From language—light
And then the heavens, then the earth: a sequence:
a narrative. Fish; beasts; us:
a story. The story,
of God and of the power of the Word.
But
at the same time—and by this, I mean
at the start of time—Nainema shaped
the forests out of his spit. At the same time,
Bumba vomited up the sun,
the moon, the stars, then “strained”
(a euphemistic translation of “shat”?) out
Ganda Bumba the crocodile, and Pongo Bumba
the eagle, and the rest: and “lastly, men came forth.”
At the same time, Khepri masturbated
(“I gave birth by my hand, I united myself
with my hand”) and Shu, the air, “came outward.”
These are each
the one true history.
There are thousands of one true histories.
And the God of the Winnebago Indians
wept, to form the waters of Earth
. . . from what I know of our lives here,
that’s a very persuasive version.
2.
“Yeah, I know him. He sits at Dinah’s Diner
every Sunday with his stack of books and notepads
like he’s Jesus Christ deciding on whether he will
or won’t resuscitate some poor dead dork;
meanwhile, of course, his acolyte—excuse me––
‘girlfriend’ needs to flit to other booths
for a scrap of human attention.” And I’ve seen it
too: Elias self-absorbed, and Angie walking
down that long sprue of an aisle, helloing
gregariously to knots of eaters left and right.
I have my own opinion about that chemistry, but first
I want to say this week Elias is reading the Scientific American
for January 2001, the “Brave New Cosmos” issue:
. . . If the universe’s acceleration is caused by vacuum
energy, then the cosmic story is complete: the planets, stars, and
galaxies we see today mark the end of cosmic evolution. From here
on, the universe dilutes and cools, and space will stretch too rapidly
for new structures to form. Living things will find the cosmos increasingly
hostile.
But if one believes
. . . acceleration is caused by the untapped potential of quintessence,
the ending has yet to be written. The quintessence could decay into
new forms of matter and radiation—protons and neutrons, perhaps
stars and planets—repopulating the universe.
—“believes” of course being the key word.
As if now, in the new millennium, even
astronomy is a matter of whether
Wakonda chanted Existence into existence
or whether Izanagi and Izanami
“stirred the brine until it curdled”
into what we call our world.
Or Ea. Or Yahweh. Or Thunder Shaker.
The Turtle God? Einstein? “Everything’s
a belief-system,” says Elias. And what are we?
—we’re one interpretation,
we’re one possible interpretation,
of ways of universe-patterning. One night,
a few of us wandered out to the pasture—chatty,
catty, insouciant over ouzo and retsina,
and under a moon as full as the pinto rump of a pony.
“Oh yeah. Angie,” someone said,
“the bitch queen. Ever see her
on Sunday at Dinah’s?—whenever she wants,
she abandons her boyfriend, who sits there
stuck alone with a book while she goes around
granting audiences like the Pope to everyone else in the room.”
3.
If speaking the light into coming
into being (as in “Let there be . . .”) is somehow
more ethereally pure than, say, the firmament
as born from the saliva,
or the onanistic jisms, of a god . . . then surely
even purer—even more abstract—is when
the Indian “Divine Self” who “desired to produce
all kinds of his own One, with a thought
released the first forms.”
With a thought: above
the need of any secondary mediation.
Isn’t this the genesis
—the Matrix Egg, the template of all templates,
call it what you will, the Big
before the Bang—that’s such a breeding place
of any-every-thing (including not-yet-things
and never-things), it’s finally only
what we choose to see it as?—not history,
or myth, so much as somewhere we can read
our own psychology into sky and mist.
“I think it’s great.
He studies if he wants,
she sits with her friends if she wants, and they have this
silent assurance between them. Fuck, if only we
could be that happy in our relationships.”
4.
A Fort Worth ball-cap manufacturing
company, Pro-Line, was cited in 1992 by the Occupational Safety
and Health Administration: it provided what was referred to as “inadequate
rest room facilities for [its] female employees.” That was
the charge; the problem. Out of all of the possible ways to interpret
“remedying the problem,” the Pro-Line management decided
to [select one]: a) ignore the OSHA findings; b) augment its cur-rent
facilities to meet the required standards; c) fire its thirty female
employees. The answer, of course:
is c, although that might
not have been
your decision or mine, had we been consulted
by Pro-Line. And would we have seen the terra-cotta ram
from Mali, West Africa (1,000 years old)
as authentic or faked? (Its “glow rate”
under thermoluminescence testing is inconclusive.)
The slim Minoan “serpent priestess”
overseeing the bull-leaper games: ancient;or forged? (The experts
are divided on this.
At a panel last year, two of them threw shoes
at their opponents.) Or this warrior
on horseback, as a sunset turns the folds of his clothing
golden, thickly golden, like the run-off
in a pharaonic smithery at the end of the day:
is this the master’s hand at work; or a skillful
Rembrandt imitator? (Two
well-funded art museum investigatory panels
disagree.) And the love your parents emitted
in great, rock opera declamations for one another:
sincere; or was it humbug love
they purchased at the five-and-dime and memorized
while you were asleep? (The jury’s still out
on this one: you can witness the various rival factions
sharply trade invective back and forth across
the holiday turkey.) God;
or evolution?
In the window of the sacristy
each afternoon as the light achieves a certain degree
of slant, a lovely stain appears, an abstract shape
of indigo and rose; unless, for you,
it’s the Virgin Mary, if you squint, and if your faith
controls your eyes. And Angie winks,
and Elias smoothes a page and doodles in its margin.
Or it’s neither vacuum energy nor quintessence:
one respected group of maverick astrophysicists
believes that the varying-speed-of-light theory (VSL)
“remains a major challenge” to the orthodox cosmologies.
And Elias folds a note and scoots it across a plain
of eggs-over-easy greases, into Angie’s hand.
They whisper, and the bones of Earth-Woman
turn into rock, her blood to springs of water.
They ignore each other, and Tepeu and Gucumatz
engender the three-fold Heart of the Sky.
They argue, and the universe tumbles headlong
over the icy edge of entropy, into a stasiswhere its flames grow
dark, and its interconnections fail
to relay the codings of life.
They touch, they stroke, and the universe wakens.
They touch, they stroke, and the universe
recalibrates itself; coheres.
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